Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Hard Week

It is easy to say you don't care about your hair until you start losing it. This morning I guess it decided to start falling out..fast. It is everywhere and I have a feeling it is going to keep falling this next week. I can still try to have a good attitude but it is getting really hard. Every time I put my hand through my mane more hair falls out...like 10 strands each time without fail. Okay I need to just keep breathing and go to treatment and work. I knew my hair would fall out but I was not ready for it. I don't know if you could ever be ready for it. I thought I was ready for it before surgery but I have a feeling that if I would have come out of surgry half bald I would have had a slightly different story. Yes I would have still been thrilled with how the surgery went but I know that I would have been a little sad about my hair and it would have taken some time to get used to it. Hopefully this is the same. I will get used to it. I am used to the six shaved parts for the fruit loops and I am used to the scar and it balding spots so hopefully I will get used to these radiation spots as well. I just don't like the unknown. I have no idea how much hair I am going to lose and I have no idea how it will grow back. Have a great day. Found another piece of hair wrapped around my finger and stuck in my ring...I wonder where else I will find it. I will always try to smile.

Tara Bodrero

it will grow back

it just may take a while

7 comments:

Lynette said...

go for it with gusto!!! Bald is Beautiful and so are you!...don't ever forget that. It is not your hair that makes you who you are. Remember your motto...come what may and love it! Love you! Lynette

Amberly said...

i'm with lynette, shave it off! there will probably never be another time in your long life when you will have as good an excuse as now to shave your head...embrace it and know that it is absolutely not your hair that defines you.

Heidi said...

You've been so brave for so much I think it's OK for you to miss your hair-- you are beautiful anyway, but I'm sure it still must be hard. Hang in there! (Put on your pretty hats and smile!)

Avon said...

(((((HUGS))))) Tara. You are in my thoughts and prayers every day.

Alexis Crum said...

I want you to know that I admire you so much. You are amazing. You are being prepared for something great. Stay positive and always know the lord is by your side. I know you are being strengthened and that many great blessings are in store for you. Hair or not, you are still beautiful!! Who needs is anyway! Keep that smile goin, you inspire me. You are in my prayers!

Jeni said...

Tara a true inspiration! I pray for you daily and know with all the love around you, you will be fine. Keep the faith! Love Jeni Bell (Ingrid's sister in law - South Africa)

Ashlee said...

Tara - You are amazing and brave. So many people are growing because of your willingness to share your story and journey with us. Thank you for that. You know you are more than just your hair and I am sure it is hard to begin this part of the experience. Keep thinking positive. I just read the book Love, Medicine, and Miracles and the way you think will help heal you! I have had the thought a few times to share the book title with you. I don't think everything in the book will be of benefit to you and your family, but it definitely shows a positive way to deal with cancer. One of my favorite quotes from the book was "Cancer isn't a sentence, it's just a word." So true!!! (I am Amy Boyer Gregory's friend!)