Friday, October 15, 2010

Live like I am dying

I was thinking about this song at breakfast and it has become the foundation for my post

It is a song by Tim McGraw called Live Like You Were Dying

He said: "I was in my early forties,
"With a lot of life before me,
"An' a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
"I spent most of the next days,
"Looking at the x-rays,
"An' talking 'bout the options an' talkin’ ‘bout sweet time."
I asked him when it sank in,
That this might really be the real end?
How’s it hit you when you get that kind of news?
Man whatcha do? 

An' he said: "I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'." 

He said "I was finally the husband,
"That most the time I wasn’t.
"An' I became a friend a friend would like to have.
"And all of a sudden goin' fishin’,
"Wasn’t such an imposition,
"And I went three times that year I lost my Dad.
"Well, I finally read the Good Book,
"And I took a good long hard look,
"At what I'd do if I could do it all again,
"And then: 

"I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'." 

Like tomorrow was a gift,
And you got eternity,
To think about what you’d do with it.
An' what did you do with it?
An' what can I do with it?
An' what would I do with it? 

"Sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I watched Blue Eagle as it was flyin'."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'." 

This morning at breakfast Josh and I were talking some more about my time left and how it is completely up in the air how long I will be here. Only the Lord knows the answer but we decided that we were going to live like it is my last three years here on this earth. We want to live with no regrets and make sure that it is the best last three years we have or the best memories of our long healthy lives. Of course I hope for the latter and I will continue to pray and have faith that the second will come true but just in case...I want to live like I am dying.


I want to make sure that I say I love you more. I want to make my bucket list and start working on it. I think everyone should have a bucket list and as this song says...we should all live like we are dying. It would not hurt the world to mend their relationships and forgive as this song says. It would not hurt the world to love deeper and really think about what they are going to do with their 86,400 seconds each day. There are a few things that I want to do with my life and so I am going to start my bucket list right now and add to it throughout the week. I am going to start living like it is my last day...we never know when the last goodbye or last I love you is so take every opportunity!


1. California trip - Sea World, Disneyland, Beach and lots of pictures
2. Washington DC - it has been my dream since six grade to go to Washington DC
3. Buy my very own puppy and raise it- I already know I want a golden or a lab
4. I want the whole Schlappi family to go to Lake Powell for a week and I want to ride the tubes with all my cousins
5. I want to go snowmobiling 
6. Fishing...I actually just want to go stay at the barn for two weeks and then I can accomplish number 7.
7. Adopt a horse for a week and call it mine. I want to go running in the lake with the perfect sunset
8. Marry my best friend...check!
9. Have picnics  and barbeque's up in the Utah canyons
10. Have a week with my girls... Becca Shauni Becky...you better be there. I want to go to New York and it may be before 10202020 but I want to go and dance in the park!
11. Sleep under the stars
12. I really just want to be with my family all the time.
13. Another cruise down the Caribbean
14. Go on another Run


This is what I want to do before I have to go. Hopefully I have 80 years to complete this but if not, Come What May and Love it. 


Tara B

5 comments:

ChristineMarie said...

Tara, you are inspiring. Thank you for sharing this. I know everyone cries when they read your posts, and I am no exception

Avon said...

Wow....Thank you Tara...you continue to inspire me.

r&k skousen said...

You really are an amazing girl!!! I love reading your posts and being inspired by you. If only we all could have your spirit.

Jaimie said...

Tara, I just have to say that you didn't jump in the cold lake and wakeboard like a girl who is not going to make it! You didn't see me or Jess jump in. Besides, none of us can live without you so go ahead with the bucket list, we all should appreciate life and the people in our lives way more than we do. But don't think you are going anywhere because It's not acceptable. Elder Cook thinks you can beat this and so do I. Besides it's going to take you lots more than three years to train that son of mine to eat all his VEGGIES!!!!!!! I love you tons. Momma Bodrero

Anonymous said...

Tara, I just stumbled upon your blog and I wanted to let you know you are amazing. I can not imagine going through what you have, are, and will go through. You are incredible and I hope that you live a long and healthy life. Your husband Josh sounds wonderful and both of you are lucky to have each other. You are in my prayers and please continue to fight.