Thursday, September 22, 2011

still there??

Are you still there...still checking after all these days of me NOT posting? Ya, I took another long break from posting and I have been informed that there are many of you out there who are getting frustrated with the lack of bloggingness! so here I am! Thank you miss Chol for the wonderful new background...I feel it quite appropriate for the blog. Reasons that I have not been blogging... well there are not any good ones especially because I have had so many good things happen in my life in the past month.

First on my mind and very exciting to me. I ran my first mile since diagnosis!!! I was so sore the next day but it felt so good...I ran a mile only to end up in the ER the next day for...kidney stones...yay :( not sure if I wrote about my first encounter with them...this is my second this month. I have a happy 6 mm kidney stone sitting in my right kidney waiting to drop and cause me extreme pain...time bomb waiting to explode! We are going to try to dissolve the little bugger before it gets on the move.


Okay so we are through kidney stones 1 and 2 and my mile maddness... now onto my wonderful new opportunity next summer! I guess since girls camp I have started myself a little speaking career. Next summer I have the wonderful opportunity to speak at a girls conference called Time to Blossom. I am so grateful that I will have this chance to share what I know and love with all these girls. Earlier this month I also spoke at a Stake Standards Night and got to share my testimony of how important our standards are and how they can either lead us to the temple...or away. Growing up I have always been petrified of speaking to people but now I get to talk to people about something that I am so passionate about. I get to share my story and my miracles. I get to share my testimony and my love for my Savior. I hope to inspire them with the experiences that have inspired me! I get to share with them something that has become a major part of who I am. Every time I talk to the youth I feel so strong that it is what it is what I am supposed to be doing. I pray that I continue to have more chances. I feel like I can be needed here to help the youth and others around me with my story. This is another reason that my trial has been a blessing. I absolutely love sharing my story. My hair is getting really long and I am looking more normal. People don't stare as much as they used to and this may sound weird but i don't like it. I like people asking me about my head and I like being different. My hair is getting so long that my oncologist asked if I was wearing a hairpiece today...seriously Shapiro??? :) Then I went to the watch place with my momma and another man thought I was a different daughter of my moms...

Okay next item of business

Last night I finished a treatment of Chemo and what does that mean????? ONE MORE LEFT??? UNO, 1,  only one more and then...well, then I am done! What am I going to do with myself??? :) ha we are going to party in the British Virgin Islands in December to celebrate! Mom will be celebrating the most...celebrating less trips to barrows, less grumpy sick Tara days, less chemo days, and most importantly...not shopping for one Christmas present!! We are going to give each other gifts that don't cost money this year and go on the cruise together!! So exciting!  I have mixed feelings about being done with Chemo but I guess it will be nice to not get sick...i just like having that medicine fight for me in my brain...it gives me peace. I also have mixed feelings about getting in the water. Some call it fear. Okay I will admit that I am scared to get in the water. Maybe a little because of sharks but mostly because of my wonderful head. I just do not want to end up in a hospital bed again. I am just so scared that the water will somehow get in there. The doctors have assured me that I will be just fine and I know that they are right...I just still am a little scared. I am sure I can work through it by December though.

Wow...a lot more has happened this last month but I am getting kinda tired so I think I will try to rap it up but before I do I must tell you the highlight of my month.

MY SISTER-IN-LAW IS PREGNANT!!!!!! 9/9/11 we found out. I was in getting an x ray on my kidney and when I come out my mom is literally screaming that Steph is pregnant. The whole office and waiting room is very excited for us! I am sure the neighbors heard too... :) They have been trying for a while and I am so excited to see this new Schlappi!! Ah 9 months need to fly by fast

okay last item of business

SCORPION

some of you may know how I feel about scorpions. If you don't. I do not hate a lot of things. I feel like hate is a very strong word so I use it carefully. I do not hate cockroaches or spiders. I do, however, HATE, loathe entirely scorpions.

(as a note before the story... WealthPlan was having its' first conference and we gathered all employees from across the country. Angie, our newest employee, had the blessing of staying at our house...lucky her :) )

2 loverly evenings ago I was settling down to watch me some HGTV...a personal favorite! I grabbed my favorite blankie...still call it that and plopped on the couch with Angie. I look over my left shoulder to see a tan, very alive, man-eating scorpion ready to kill me. I of course screamed, began hyperventilating and jumped to higher ground while throwing the blanket across the room. Angie was a bit confused to say the least. She understood further when I began screaming scorpion over and over. I told her to get Josh quick so he could kill the beast but instead she found it and killed it...what a brave soul. I have still never killed scorpion and I intend to keep it that way. A special thanks goes out to Angie for saving my life!! :)

ha I just told Joshua that I was writing about Scorpions (he is ready for me to be done as well) and he asked me if people wanted to hear about scorpions. well people you probably don't but I want to keep this as my journal so it stays!

Okay now the rambling has gone to far!!

ahh I missed blogging!

I love you!!

Thanks for being faithful

Tara! :)


7 comments:

BrazilDMD said...

Glad to read your blogs again- I hate scorpions too! That's a great idea about Christmas presents that don't cost anything. Hope to see you soon (since I live in AZ again now).

Lori said...

The youth do need to hear your story and your testimony! You have so much strength to share. I'm excited that you get the opportunity to make a difference in the lives of so many. Keep it up! You are amazing! Glad you are doing well.

Stacey said...

Tara-- I love reading your blog and keeping up with you and Josh and your lives! I am excited you are speaking at Time to Blossom next summer. I have been their event photographer since they started so I will see you there. Also, if you and Josh want updated photos (maybe for Christmas cards) I would love to do a new shoot with you (my treat!) So glad to see you doing so well and always so upbeat. You are such an inspiration. Take care, Stacey (*Your friendly photographer) P.S. I totally share your fear of scorpions! However, it is kind of empowering to kill them--it lessens my fear.

Kerisa said...

I love reading your blog and I have a cousin and Aunt that follow you too. (All the way from Michigan!) You are an inspiration to so many people! You have touched so many lives. Thank you Tara! I am serious with this offer...if you want more opportunities to share your story come speak at our Girls Camp next summer. Not sure when you are booked for, but if you are available the week of July 9-13th, let me know. We'd love to see you and Josh too! Please continue blogging. You bring such joy and happiness to everyone.
Love you!
-Kerisa (Boyd's wife) :)

Anonymous said...

Tara, you are an amazing woman! I have been following your blog since the beginning of this journey you are on. I love your new title picture! I was thinking back to the beginning and in the first picture of you and Josh before you were married you look like a happy girl...on to your wedding picture outside the Temple...a happy bride...and now, a happy,contented,wise, married woman and her ever loving, ever faithful, rock of a husband. (the evolution of Tara). You suffer much, but from that suffering you have become a richer, wiser, more complete person.

Anonymous said...

P.S. I forgot to mention that immediately after smiling to see you and Josh in your new picture, my next reaction was to how healthy (and beautiful) you look!

nykki and erik said...

Tara.... You are one of the most amazing women i Know (by blog only) and your courage and determination to define the odds and your faith that carry's you is seen in your blog. I'm so glad you got your miracle and the Youth of the Church who get to hear your story will never be the same. I hope i can have your strength. Love the new blog background.