5 more weeks

Becky again...

Tara is on antibiotics again - I don't even remember which kind this time.  But, we are back to the antibiotics making her sick all the time.  It isn't going to be easy to get through these next weeks.  Tara really does feel pretty sick when she takes them.  So, she's trying to get through the forced "facelift" of the entire head being opened up again and then stretched; as well as the sick feeling from antibiotics.  I saw the shipment of antibiotics at my doorstep again and just about cried right then and there.  My stomach gets this sick feeling again and that medicine just about resembles poison to me.  I'm sure it's even more poisonous to Tara.  I just hope and pray they work; and her body will be able to return to some semblance of normal and be able to fight off her own infections after all this forced help.  So, when you all pray; please pray specifically that Tara will be able to EAT, and that she will be able to endure these weeks and regain some strength at some point.  No food sounds good to her - we're just happy if it doesn't BAD.  She's tired of resting and not feeling good.  Chemo is going to be put off again; but that's ok with me - she's so sick already she just can't handle anything else while she's fighting this infection.

We are going to Lake Powell and Tara is trying to make the best of a trip to Powell when she can't even really get in the water.... she made me promise not to cancel it and knowing Tara, she will enjoy the things she CAN do; and not mope about the things she can't.  Maybe I'm the only "moper" around.  She has that port accessed sticking out of her chest again, and she will also have stitches in her head as well; so no water for Tara.  I guess she can wade.... and hopefully get some splashes on her while she rides a jet ski....

We're enjoying a visit from Scott's parents - they wanted to come see Tara... and Tara also loved having her friend from college days here after the surgery; so it's been good to have some diversions.

Thanks for your specific prayers; we wouldn't get through this pathway without our army praying for us!  I was talking to someone today and realized how blessed we are - I needed that today because I've been negative about having to take antibiotics again.  As I explained the tumor, I realized again how blessed we are that Tara has all of herself working, (even though she's weak) and the tumor didn't have fingers spreading around - she had a great surgery; which helps.  So, there are always those miracles I have to remember when I feel a little picked on (or rather, I feel like Tara's picked on..)  We just have to gut through this hard time...