Friday, October 4, 2013

“You know, I really did not think I was going to make it this long”
“I did not either”
“I thought I would be gone within three years for sure”
“Me too”
“Then why did you marry me…forever?”
“Because knowing I would have some time as your husband is better than no time.”

Last week we went to a friend’s and this was part of our conversation while we danced. I cannot get it out of my head. I honestly thought I would be lucky to make it through treatment and now today, I sit here 30 weeks pregnant with a baby they told me I would never have. I am overcome with awe when I look at my life. I think of all the things I have done, and I am so glad I was wrong about my timeline. I am overcome with the love my husband had and has for me and am grateful for the love we already have for our baby girl.

While dancing in Josh’s arms I had a flash back to all the initial fear of not having forever with him and not having long in this life with my family.  

There have been many times the past 30 weeks (I blame the hormones) that I have cried out of pure joy and unbelief. I cannot believe that this is my life…I am so happy. Josh asks if I am okay then smiles when I tell him, “I am just so happy”. I love being so happy. I love being loved, I love being alive, I love our friends and families, and I love our future family. I cannot believe this is my life!

I am alive
I am pregnant
I am in love
I am happy

--never thought I would have all this
--I don’t need anything more

-Tara & Adelyn Mae


Jennifer Noble said...

Tara, this post made me cry for joy as well! I am so thankful that it was within the Lords plan to keep you here cuz you are a blessing in everyones life! And your little miracle girl is an amazing continuation of that blessing! We love you guys!

Heidi said...

I'm so, so happy that you are so happy!!

Can't wait for Adelyn to make her appearance!

Ammon/Cami said...

Love you Tara!

Anonymous said...

Your are an amazing young women. Words can't describe how happy I am for you and your family.

Huish Family said...

*sniff* Beautiful post. You guys are just amazing! Love and hugs from Utah!

Lori Allen said...

I am so happy to know you and Josh - and love reading posts like this. Sweet, loving relationship. You never take life and love for granted. We should all be so wise.