We’re back. My precious brain went to tumor board again today and… here we go again. We have been watching this area since April 25th. We were in a “wait and see” phase… now, we are in the “action” phase. Round 2 here we go….
I know part of my coping is being vulnerable… it is feeling all the feels and getting it all out. I’m dehydrated, tired, easily triggered and scared but I am going to do this. I am not going to give up. We are going to act fast, hard and with aggression. I have an amazing medical team and it is time to assemble my army again. You were here for me the first time, I gave you a decade break but it the time is now. I need you again. I need your prayers and support. We need it. My babies need me. My Josh needs me. WE need it. It is time to fight again.
Next steps.
Biopsy the first week of January. Kris Smith did 6 of my 7 previous surgeries and we are planning on him but we are still in contact with Dr. Berger who did my initial resection. After biopsy we will get the path report which will then tell us the next steps. I am anxious about the next steps but we will do it.
I know I need an outlet. This blog helped me last time so we are giving it a try this time. This time is different though. This time is more… it hurts more, it affects more, it is just more everything. I’ve got 4 littles now. 4 perfect littles that need a momma, I am a good mom… I care so much for them. I need to be here for them. I just don’t want to die… give me chemo everyday all day but don’t take me from my littles.
